Retrospective Nightmare I Lyrics

I never saw myself as being the way I am now. I am not the man I had envisioned. This is not the life I had seen for myself to live. I have so many faces anymore. I never know who I am anymore. I hear inside my mind my childhood fall to its knees crying out in such mournful wails I have to cut it off with the likes of severing my limbs with a saw for I cannot bare it. (In hindsight subconsciously I have set myself up for torment. Genetically I was born into it. Creating pain to inspire more suffering to endure. Pain is my savior.)