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I'm always getting caught up, always carried away
I'm always a fool for feelings, I let love take my place
I'm always letting myself down, always falling behind
I'm always haunted by hurting on things I cannot change

I don't know if I will ever be free of these thoughts of frustration my head seems to be
an abyss of self-loathing that's ever leaking on my world and my friends and my will to succeed.

When will life share its light? Or is it I?
Do I command the sun to shine?

Light gives to life
Life takes to ether
I felt the waves of death in my feathers

Everything is new now. This is the first breath.