Tainted Lyrics

When I get lost in the depths of all my thoughts
I wonder if I ever could get out
Everything that I believed in is now consuming me
I believe in death, in life
What I really get?
Just a bunch of lies

Digging deep inside myself
I kept my hope living
I tried by keeping it alive
To keep myself breathing

I rejected truth wanting be alive
But now I'm prepared to die... just die
Everything is a lie
Just let me get out

Horror
Madness bound me with a barbed wire
Fly in cursed spaces
Vomit my disgraces

I just want to
I just want to let my black blood flowing
Let my dead eyes glowing
I just want to scream out
The spell inside of me
No way out

I am The One
King of flies
Aborted by an asphyxiated
I live inside sad and exhausted minds

Welcome to my paradise
All of my attempts to do the right thing are destroyed
And all my hopes were cutted out by rusty scissors
Now as I sit here in my own blood
I figured out that the way is only one
And that way is to be alone

The unbearable pain starts changing me
Like a damned ghost in the depths of my broken mind
I wonder if I really want to get out
Everything that I... all that I feared now motivates me

Far away I have time
I am not dead
I'm alive