Transient Pale Days Lyrics

The joy I feel is transient, the smile you see just on the outside. 
Time heals nothing it seems, I have tried, 
I never said I wanted it the easy way, but how long will this last? 

You don't dare to tell the truth, and you don't want to lie. 
You leave some before you loose it, relations die. 
You don't see my scars, the open wounds. 
We still see the same moon, in different ways. 

As now my pale days grow me older 
I have yet not found a tomb to mourn on, 
nor the prayer to grant me the someone I wish for. 

Pale days growing my soul old, reflecting the pain into my heart, to kill me slowly. 
Will you laugh at last when I'm done forever? 

I just want to wake up and see your eyes as they were, 
kind as before, when they didn't scare me. 
Twisted reality where I wished dreams came true, 
or your evil words could be a lullaby. 

When I'm not with you I wanna be alone, to loose myself in a spiral of questions 
that expands with time and never ends. 
The hard truth that bitters our kisses, or the sweet lies to tear us apart, 
which of those can you live with, which of those do you choose? 

We may remember the love we once had, but won't feel it as one. 
In your eyes I won't find my loving sight but surprise and deception.